• I'm down with heavy fever for the past 6 days. Doc suspected it's dengue. Have to go for blood check-up tomorrow if i'm still down with fever.
  
• It was BFTGath @ yaneng's place last saturday and i missed all the good foods due to the fever.
• Went to Jakarta 5 times since January - April and i still have another 2 trips to go for 2008.
• My bro, Reza finally finished with his houseman's and Specialist tests last month and is coming back to Malaysia very very soonnnnnnnnnn :) I'm getting him to buy me lots and lots of Mega Mendung's fabrics & traditional keraton/cirebon accessories :)
  
• Another bro, syamim is coming back from Cairo in June for holidays..wheeee can't wait to see another DR in the making :) looking at the piccies he sent us, he's lost a lot of weight but yes fairer and fairer.
• I'm addicted to Batik's especially the mini dresses and the mega mendung batik. It was Batik's craze in Jkt last month and i saw almost everyone in their batik's apparel. I always thought the normal cotton batik as sarung but when i was there, it opened my eyes. They have all sorts of designs in batik..even the Prada ballloon sleeve shirt!! everyone looked so pretty in their batiks. Bought few mini dresses and mega mendung fabrics in cotton and silk. I think i keep the mega mendungs for Eid :)
• I've been buying shoes non stop. I just love looking at all the shoes. I don't dare to count how many shoes i bought this past months.
  
• I have to stop buying bags..god!! 15bags in 3 months.
  
• I miss N a lot. I know i shouldn't remember or miss N at all but i can't help it. When we broke up, i lost 10 years of my life. I don't have lots of friends(most of them migrated) and all i have is my family and N but All gone in 1 seconds. and it's all my faults. Just because of my stupid insecurity of 1 girl and i lost him. I cant help my self from feeling that way. How do you feel if you BF told you that there's a girl have feeling towards him and he felt the same way during our "down" times and keep contacted him eventhough she knew i'm with him. I trusted him but i dont trust her. In front of him, whenever he told me about that bitch, i had to pretend that everything is okay. I'm not good in expressing myself but i do love him. He said i should not be insecure about this but at the end of the day, i exploded and sick of pretending. I've said things that i know will hurt him a lot. On our last day, i was hoping for him to "pujuk" and propose to me but he said "i'm not the right person for you" instead. My heart dropped! Yeah, he told me a month before that his mother wanted us to get married in August but he never ask me to marry him personally. I told him that i wanted to wait for my station and the truth is, i was hoping for him to ask me in person. If he did ask, i will marry him straightaway. I don't care about my station at all. Anyway he moved on 2 months later with that bitch. To ease my feeling, I kept myself busy and spending a lot of $$$. I travels a lot too. At least twice a month till now. Anyway H been with me ups and down, care for me and i thank him for that. H helped me to be a better person and forget about my pasts.
• I finally got back my lovely LV MC Theda from their service centre. Took them 5 months to fix that stupid marks. It's beautiful now.
• I'm eeying the Prada Magical Fairies pumps and striped Nappa hobo.
• I love love love leggings :) bought a lot of tunics to wear with my colorful leggings.
• I hate guys in Skinny. I can see them everywhere pfftt...